A couple of years ago, I sat at my desk, staring at a pile of papers for hours.
I was required to do a recon of expenses for the company I was working for at the time, but because I had been running on empty for months, I just sat there unable to move.
My doctor called it “adrenal fatigue and burnout” but I knew that there was more. But, like so many a corporate animal, I limped along from one deadline to the next trying to prove that I was invincible when in fact the ground was giving way beneath my feet.
I won’t tell you exactly how that chapter ended because you’ll have to wait to buy my second book. (SURPRISE SURPRISE! Yes, that’s what I’ve been doing all this time. I’ve been writing. Sorry if you’ve missed my weekly stories I had to put my head down and focus. I’ve also written about why I could not blog during this time of writing my book. It was a “spiritual” directive)
Back to the story of the ADRENAL FATIGUE,
Yes, I was drained by my work because it was not aligned to my PURPOSE. I kept getting this nagging feeling that I had to make more time for my “inner work”.
Why couldn’t I just fast forward to the part where I get the new role in the new life I wanted?
Frustrated at first, I began to make time for what I believed to be the INNER WORK. Daily meditation, prayer, study, study. I consulted with my guides, teachers, coaches, mentors and spent many hours in prayer and solitude.
Still, something was missing. Until one morning, just as I stepped out of my cold shower (Get your mind out of the gutter! I’ve been taking cold showers for over 20 years for their circulation and immune boosting benefits!)
Ahaaaaa! I felt a voice say in answer to my repeated question about how to inject more purpose and magic into my life in order to grow and prosper. The answer was quite simple: PLAY! LAUGH! DANCE! CONNECT!
That’s it, I thought. That’s exactly what was missing. Those words described me so well but why was I not committing to those things in the same way as I was to the other “important” things in my life?
Exactly! Following my BLISS is now my “inner work” and I am very committed to it.
Perhaps I can tempt you to join me?