I always remember how people make me feel.
I feel full of energy, light and vitality when I’m around some people.
I feel full of anxiety, fear, nervousness and lethargy when I’m around other people.
And, this month I’ve been paying close attention to those feelings.
I’ve noticed that it has nothing to do with the circumstances I meet those people in. I could meet a woman who just lost her home in a fire she’d still have a calming energy. Conversely, I could meet a holy man carrying meditation beads exiting a church and only feel anxiety after our exchange.
This fascinates me.
Quite intuitively then, I have been spending lots of time in introspection about this. It’s a perfect time too with the last days of Lent, the falling of brown leaves, crisper mornings, and the closure of a year-long period of mourning for me. I am grateful that I have the time to go at this unusually slow pace (for me).
The penny really dropped on my morning walk in a nearby park yesterday when I went so far out that my sensibilities screamed red flags in many colourful languages, begging me to return to my car. Just then, a man approached me from the side and startled me.
Still, I felt calm. I felt energised. Happy to walk, talk and share the path leading back to our cars, I was grateful. (I must admit it took way longer than I would have liked because he was…umm…rather heavy). I drove home feeling energised, happy, grateful for that energy exchange.
In gratitude, I thought I would write about it this week, looking to assure you that if you go slowly, listen attentively, allowing your intuition to guide, you will also gain insights into what and who lifts you, and who and what drains you.
Are you feeling me? If so, I urge you to move softly, paying close attention to the energy of the people around you. Where you can, surround yourself with the ones that make you feel like you’ve just eaten your favourite warm pudding.
That energy is life.
Reflections of Lee-Ann Mayimele, All Rights Reserved